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Jun. 2nd, 2010 | 01:10 am
mood: excitedexcited

I am mere hours away from my NYC theatrical debut.  

Sure I've performed in New York.  I've done school productions, staged readings, clown gigs, and music.  I walk through a lot of my life performing for the masses, whether they realize it or not.  Yet, at 8pm tonight, I will be gracing a small New York theatre with my presence.  I will be wearing full costumes, acting on a designed set, with lights, and memorized lines, and other dedicated actors.  

Though it is a small step in a small theatre in a variety of small roles...it is a beginning.  It is real.  It makes me feel like a professional.

This production makes me feel a way doing Bay Area theatre never made me feel.  I don't know if it's the place, or the dedication of the other performers/directors/techies, or my own life place, but this feels special.  Maybe it's all Frank Sinatra's fault for saying I can make it anywhere at this point...

I am so proud of myself right now.  That this is a beginning I can be excited about.  That I'm performing SHAKESPEARE in NEW YORK CITY.  Yes.  YES.  A thousand times yes.  That everyone involved in this production is committed and excited to be involved.  That there has been no petty bullshit and no divas and no backstabbing.  That it has been an ensemble that knows the play is the thing.

Having spent the past two days fully immersed in rehearsals and play and tech and dress...there is no where I'd rather be.  Even when it was work.  Even when rehearsals felt lousy, or half assed, or pointless...it is still amazing.  That this group of people who didn't know each other 2 months ago met for a month and a half together to create something that can make you laugh and cry and experience something that is more than this life.  Is there a better art form out there?

I feel like I'm an artist again.  I want to savour every second of this.  I want to remember every performance and every moment and every crazy panicked costume change and every character choice.  I want to hold this in those dark quiet hours when I wonder just what I'm doing with myself and why I don't give up and go become a botanist to study moss.  

I had a moment walking home tonight, passing the Chrysler Building, the Empire, Madison Square Garden, hopping on a city bus and then transferring to the uptown A...I am a New York City actress.

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from: roaming
date: Jun. 2nd, 2010 06:15 am (UTC)
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Awesome! No. . . AWESOME, AWE INSPIRING! (And I gather from your last paragraph destinations you are not doing Shakespeare in the Park at Belvedere with Joe Papp's group. Just as well, you've avoided the divas that way! ;-P )

I'm sooo happy for you!

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from: snowyshastina
date: Jun. 16th, 2010 06:01 am (UTC)
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Yay for being a proper grown-up actress! I'm very proud of you. Sky is the limit, I think.

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